22 July 2011
Winding Roads And Far-off Views
Dear blog friends, I am so sorry I have been absent these past two weeks. I have thought of so many things I want to share with you and if I could go to lunch with you we would talk about so many things I cannot discuss here. I have missed you, your wisdoms, friendship, etc. I wanted to pop in and say hello.
One thing I kind of hate about blogging is the need to be so private and guarded about personal matters. It's necessary, it's right and wise, but some days you just want to shout out to the world about the real life experiences you are having. I have been on a journey of unexpected challenges and driven by a view of things afar off that I know are good and right. A journey where paths meander, are more slow-moving and difficult to traverse than it seems they should be or at times seems humanly possible.
But the great lesson I have learned in the journey is that there is joy and happiness to be found in every day. I have not been too sad, depressed or fearful, but rather confidant, joyful and happy. I am learning and learning and learning again to find the beauty in my life, no matter what comes; to devour every bit of love extended to me and share every bit I have in my heart to give.
There is nothing held back in any way in my life right now. It's all on the line. I am fighting the good fight in every way afforded me. And what blessings have come my way? A most delicious few stolen hours at the beach in the most beautiful weather, fireworks - lots of them and often just when I have prayed for strength and understanding (I'll share an experience I had many years ago about fireworks with you sometime), tearful, joyful hugs, deeply personal promises between the hearts of my nearest and dearest and even the most miraculous interactions with acquaintances and strangers who had something to share that buoyed me up.
I actually had a complete stranger say to me last week, "I don't know you, but I feel I need to share something with you." After speaking for a few minutes, this person we came to realize had been through the exact experiences we are going through right now and it was just beyond amazing that we met and she reached out to us purely from personal inspiration.
I just realized it sounds like I am ill or dying or something and that is not the case, please don't worry. But we are currently facing a challenge with very long term consequences for our soon-to-be official little family. It's heartbreaking and yet, in my heart, my dear, dear heart I see afar off the promised blessings and joy down the path we must walk. I know they are real and I know I have it in me to have the faith to get there.
I know many of all of you will understand what I speak of. You have your far off views and challenging paths too. While I hate to think you are faced with challenges, I know there's a beautiful city in view for you too, as I am sure you feel as well. I wish you every joy and every blessing in facing those things. There's some comfort that we are all in the same boat so to speak. Know that with all my heart I send you my best wishes and any strength I can share on your journey. I'll see you on the path somewhere soon. With love, K